What I have learned from my new job

With working at the hospital, it can be very challenging. I have never really thought of myself as a really softy until I had my babies. I watch, read, hear of anything that could be sad and I cry. Most recently, I dont know if you guys have heard or not, but a north Salt Lake police officer died. He was only 30 years old. Him and his wife just had their own set of twin just 4 weeks ago. They just bought a house. They were living the way they should have been. He told his wife recently that "he felt like his life was PERFECT' This man died at our hospital. It breaks my heart to think of what his wife is going though. I Go around room after room, seeing people dying, sick, getting transplants, car accident victims, wounds, things that I never thought I would ever see. But I do. I was telling a patient the other day that I don't know if I would be able to keep myself together if there was ever a disaster in our area. He told me that I would do what I had to to help those people, but I would end up going home and crying, yet being grateful at the same time. and that's what I seem to do lately and their wasn't even a disater. it breaks my heart seeing what I see. I pray for that family that lost their husband, daddy, brother, son, friend. I often wonder how I do this everyday, and I don't know the answer to that. I just know I go home every night to my wonderful husband, my beautiful babies, and I get to see my family again and I am grateful for that. I am grateful for my life and health.
Please pray for those sick and in need. Everyone needs a little prayer.

6 month check up

so I already went to write this and the computer took it away. SO here goes it again.

I can't believe the girls are already 6 months old. Time goes by so fast. I was going through some of their clothes to give to charity and I found their preemie clothes and it just amazes me that they were that little once. It makes me so sad to think that they were so small and now they are big tanks. And their preemie clothes were too big on them. It's just so amazing. anyways 6 month check up. It went really well. Alyssa weighs 14 lbs 7 oz and Ali weighs a grand total of 15 lbs and 5 oz. She is such a tank. They are both 25 inches long. They all got good check up and are doing really well. They eat everything we give them. They are growing so fast. Scooting and talking. It's so fun. I wanted to add a picture we took in the hospital to show you how small they really were. Alyssa is on the left and Ali is on the right.

Our first Halloween

Our first Haloween was not as fun as it could have been. I had to work. The babies were at my moms most of the day so Brian went and picked them up and got them ready there. Betty came over as well so we got pictures with her too. I did get to see the babies though. They came to my work and I got to show them off to everyone. We had dinner. Ali slept pretty much the whole time. It was a rough day for them. So needless to say by the time Brian got home it was almost 8pm and Brian took them to the neighbors to show them our cute babies but after that we didn't even have one tricker treaters. I'm sure it was cuz it was cold and rainy. oh well more candy for us I guess.
Here are the babies 6 month pictures. Ali is the Butterfly and Alyssa is the flower. we took these at the house. brisn friend, Niringa did a great job.

Both Girls happy. :-)

Alyssa in her flower costume.

Alyssa just about done with having her picture taken. I love her face here. (just take the picture allready-she says)

Ali all happy in her butterfly costume.

Ali fell asleep while we were taking Alyssa pictures. She did not want to wake up either. It was really funny actually.

Here are their fall pictures. Ali in pink and Alyssa in brown.

Alyssa on the haystack. She is just so beautiful.

Ali all Happy on the haystack. She is so cute.

Alyssa upclose. She loves chewing on her fingers lately.

So that was our October fun. It was a busy month and it's just going to get busier as the holidays approach us. But I am so looking forward to them as well. It will be so much fun to see what the girls learn and how they progress.

I am one brave chicka

Not to brag or anything, but I have attempted something I did noy think I would do for awhile. I took two 6 month old babies to Coscto.
I know it sounds silly, but I was really scared to take them for awhile. Every time I take them anywhere I have to either feed them, or find a bathroom to change one of them, or they have one of their fits so I was really nervous.
Normally I would wait until the weekend to go to the store, but I noticed that we were completely out of cat food, and my cats wont even try to eat tuna fish to by me another day so off I went.
I was pondering if I should out them in the cart or leave them in their car seats. I decided if they were awake I would put them in the cart. First I found the perfect parking spot, I still don't know how I got to lucky to be in the front near the entrance. If anyone knows the Sandy Costco, their parking lot is on a slight incline and the carts roll away while your putting your stuff in the car so I didn't want to be on the incline. so anyways, they were awake so I put them in the cart, buckled them in and they sat their the entire time. we had NO crying, not a fuss, not one bathroom stop, no feedings, They were so excited. They kicked and was laughing, looking all around. Of course I got stopped left and right for having two beautiful looking girls, but over all I got what I needed and it turned out to be a great experience. I'm sure next time I wont be as lucky but oh well.
I got a picture of the girls in the cart for the first time on my phone but I don't know how to upload it. I will figure it out one day.

My new job

so I started my new job last week. It went pretty well. The job is going way easy, cuz I"m used to haveing to work in my little lab ordereding everything and processing it all and resulting and drawing the blood and ordering supplies. The only thing I do here is draw blood. The other differenace too is that I'm running all over the hospital. you see things that you have never seen before. It get very intimadating when you walk into a room and the patient is hooked up to all these tubes and have oxygen with big blue tubes and other tubes going who knowes where. It can be very scary. Some patients are out of it and some are not. It will just take some adjustments. The biggest adjustments I think is going to be have to be away from Brian and my babies so much. I hardly every put them to bed anymore. I think they are crancky for Brian cuz they dont see me as much. I feel so gulity and get depressed when I think about all the things I"m missing, but in the end I have to keep reminding myself why I am doing this. I have to do this for my family. I dont really have a choice right now. If I did I would be at home. It will be great I keep telling myself. It's not so bad. It will work out.